Suffering for the longest tearing myself apart searching for something that never left disappear forever now I understand what good comes from this my love for you is torn between my hatred of what you've done days last forever in my eyes and memories never seem to surface you've left so much to be repaired hurting myself in hope that you might notice how much I still care you're the one that left when I needed you the most dead in the eye the last time I've seen you you're staring me dead in the eyes calculate the time I've spent crucifying myself pain is existence fear keeps us alive no more turmoil erase my sadness I must be purified